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My soon to be three year old son (Elijah) has picked up a really bad habit.  Daddy says it is just a phase, but it is one that I don't like.  When he gets mad at you for whatever reason, he will tell you "I not play with you anymore!".  Then he runs off and pouts.  (Side note, we have done just about everything to stop this behavior.  If you have any suggestions, let me know.) This has an interesting parallel to my so called "adult" behavior.  Earlier this year I had confided in a good friend of mine "Mary".  Instead of supporting me, she tore apart my dreams and told me where  I need improvement.  That was really the last time "I played with her".  I cut off all contact, I had no desire to "play with her anymore".  If I knew she would be somewhere I was planning on going, I would change plans (yes,  I know this is unforgiveness). I justified my bahavior by telling my husband that Mary didn't listen to me.  She is the type who listens with her answer running (meaning she doesn't listen completely, she had my problem fixed before I had it explained.)  And I told him that I just needed to be listened to sometimes, I just need somebody to listen, and sometimes in the process of talking it out God gives me the answer.. Jesus said that we need to be like a child to enter the kingdom of heaven.  I realized yesterday that there is a big difference in being childlike and childish.  Lord, help me to be childlike and not childish! I still have no desire to play with Mary anymore.  The wound is still raw and bleeding.  I can almost see my heart in pieces on the floor, and I don't trust Mary with them.  I need to give these broken pieces to God and let Him work in me. God is not done with this either.  I can feel He wnats me to do more with this writing, either to write it better or a second piece to it.

background from Warriors of Christ

JUST LIKE A CHILD